It’s
been a while since I've wrote something like this,
but than I ran into this site and I just needed
to do it. To me, J was, god I don’t know,
just one of the awesome people. Somewhere back
in grade school he defended me on the playground
after Fighting with Drew Krauss and we were pretty
close from that point On, we did everything, baseball,
boy scouts, sleepovers, we got "family close" and
everything, his mom and my mom were friends, his
mom was even cool enough to let us get into sea
world a few times and that was an awesome experience
for me back then.
These things may seem mediocre
but the > kickass times we had were just, ugh,
something a lot of kids don’t get to do anymore
and that to me is irreplaceable.
I remember every weekend we
would get together and build forts in the fields
and the woods, I had a little 45cc 4-wheeler which
we rode so much we could have gone around the world
twice. I remember crow shooting in the field, and
jumping electric fences into the neighbor’s
horse corrals.
I still have a mark from when
we fell out of a tree. In school we would always
pick each other right away for teams in gym and
do partner work together, I have so many pictures
of us doing stuff as kids and it gets to me but
maybe ill post them up. We always went and crashed
the Kennedy center playing the games and basketball
when he lived in Hiram.
We always camped together
in boy scouts, in fact other than chopping firewood
with my dad in the bitter cold winters it seems
that most of my childhood was with this scrawny
little scrapper of a kid, who was probably the
funniest and most entertaining person I have ever
known and you know what? He was genuine, yes that
is the best way to describe him, no matter what
the hell was going on in the "grown-up" world
whatever we did took us away from all the hard
times and I think he and I were our own get-aways
from reality. At least as kids.
Ha-ha, I remember maybe a few
weeks after y'all moved to 44, must have been around
5th grade or so, we were in the backyard playing
some baseball using the trees as bases, and when
we first started, I was bout to pitch and he decided
to whip his new bat up in the air over his head
with both hands and slam it into the ground, cause
it was brand new and aluminum, so I am sitting
there about to pitch and he does this, and this bat
flew back off the ground so fast and smacked him
right in the forehead, I don’t think I can
recall anything so funny, cause we were kids and
it was just..wow, never anything so funny in my
life, and he cried oooooh god did he cry and I
ran to him but I could not stop laughing it was
straight out of the three stooges, and he was so
damn fast, I never caught him in that damn game
when we finally played. I think he got mad at me
after that day....
I am not sure why but that
was the last real memory I have of him and I really
having fun together, I suppose we were cool for
a while but somewhere in 6th grade we split ways.
Growing up sucks I suppose.
A lot of people don’t
know about what I’ve said here about him
and I. I can definitely say he is the best friend
I have ever had in my life, because even after
we split ways, there would always be the silent
nod and smile in the hallways in school, or id
see him around town and he would ask about Kayla
and the family and I would ask the same. A sort
of mutual respect we had for each other even when
we didn’t see eye to eye and even later on
in life.
School was something else
with this guy to I mean, what a Character, always
the class clown, by far, always harassing them
teachers to no end but keeping it funny the whole
way around, not caring about what would happen
with the principals and detentions and all that
stuff. Especially after graduating, anything we
did together we always did with a goofy ass smile
and this care-free attitude that rivaled something
straight out of the movies that wed be pretend
to be in as kids, it was always a great time cause
that’s exactly what it was, just plain genuine.
There is a song that I’ve
heard recently that seems to hit a real note with
me and I instantly think of Jay and all the Tics
of Time I seemed to share with him, and I would
like to share the words as well...
" Sunny days seem to hurt
the most Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go...
See your smile
I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe you’re gone
It ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today
Would you see the world?
Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Someday's the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy
It ain't fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing, no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know, I'll see you again someday"
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